I have not taken the time in a while to update my blog. Work, marriage, family, and life kept me away from my passions, this being one of them. I recently filed for divorce from my wife of three years due to the cliche’ irreconcilable differences. It is unfortunate because even though we didn’t get along and were basically torturing each other, I did love her as much as I could love someone. I also loved her children as if they were my own. Life is life though and you really never know people. I suspected issues from day one and in the end my suspicions were warranted. I have nothing bad to say because I am just as guilty of the failure. It takes two to tango, but I can say that I offered my best. All I sought was the same in return. In the end though I realized I always seemed to find myself seeking something I was never going to get. Often times we as humans seek to reach out a helping hand and hope that one day the other party will reciprocate. That is a flaw in my persona and beliefs that is somewhat selfish. I need to learn to give without expecting anything back. That is difficult when all your life experience has taught you that people will alway take and never give. I will most likely never confess, admit, capitulate or concede that I am wrong about this. I will though try to be more open minded.
With that being said I guess it is somewhat obvious that I now have more time on my hands. I hope to get back to some of the passions in my life such as fishing, hiking, camping, and more. I also plan to take more time to take care of myself and get my head back. I lost focus on a great deal of things in my life that made me a better person and I hope to gain back that focus and insight. Hopefully I will have more to offer as the days go by.